Monday, 13 October 2025

And The House Belongs To...




Many decades ago, in a coastal village in Somnath, Gujarat, a wealthy goldsmith built a grand house for his family. Since everyone lived in a joint family then, he planned for the future and had accordingly asked the architect to ensure that the house had eight rooms, a big hall, kitchen and courtyard. He named it “Vaikunth”, dedicated to Lord Vishnu. The house was always filled with laughter and the sound of cheerful people celebrating joyous occasions. The house witnessed marriages, engagements, baby showers and the eventual destination of life too. Death.


The goldsmith died and left the house to his two sons. His wife too died soon after. The sons lived in harmony and, as was the norm then, had many children. Tragedy struck again when five years later, the younger son, his wife and three children passed away in a train crash. And now, the eldest son, his wife named Nabi Ben and six children were the only people living in that magnificent house. They had four sons and two daughters, all happily married. The daughters had settled abroad in Dubai. The eldest son had moved to Mumbai. Nabi Ben, let other families of the village hold their festivities and celebrations there. In those times, wedding halls or party halls were unheard of.


Ten years later, the house witnessed another death. Nabi Ben’s husband passed away. After the funeral and rituals were completed, the issue of ownership of Vaikunth was brought up. The four sons claimed ownership as legal heirs. Nabi Ben objected to it. She said she was the wife of the deceased and the house belonged to her. In those days, women of the house were never considered as legal successors, though the law had made provisions for them. The sons told her that they will take care of her and the house will still be hers. But Nabi Ben had seen how children behaved with their parents in old age. The scenario of being helpless in her own house scared her. She not only refused to budge but also declared that her daughters too had a share in the house. If the ownership was to be shared then it was only fair that the daughters receive their share. The sons argued that their sisters had been given 3 kilos of gold each during their marriage. To which Nabi Ben replied that the wives of the four sons had also been given 3 kilos gold each. The matter got heated and eventually they filed a case in civil court, claiming ownership. The court, in all its wisdom, declared Vaikunth a disputed property. Vaikunth was sealed.


One of her sons moved to Junagadh with his family and the other two sons moved to Ahmedabad. Life must go on and they all had families to look after and feed. Nabi Ben was now homeless and helpless. She had never needed to work in her life and due to her old age, she wasn't given any work either. Her savings started dwindling. She would stay at her relatives' houses for three months and as soon as she sensed that she wasn't welcome, she would leave. Eventually, she lived in the yards of Vagheshwari temple in Somnath. She would look after the temple and happily accept the “dakshina” given in return. Destiny took a turn for the worse again when there was a theft in the temple and all fingers pointed at Nabi Ben. According to the people, she was the only one in dire need of money and had access to the temple throughout the day. She pleaded but to no avail. She was asked to vacate the premises immediately. Despite all this, Nabi Ben refused to compromise with her sons and stubbornly held her ground. Initially, Nabi Ben's family and cousins persuaded her to let go of her claim. But later on, they were worried that they might end up having to look after her as none of her sons will accommodate her anymore. Not that Nabi Ben would have agreed to them anyway. She often passed Vaikunth and would stare at it with tears in her eyes.




The discord in the family kept getting bitter. The eldest son’s daughter was getting married in Mumbai. He sent out invitations to his brothers and went to see his mother to invite her. After all, the first grandchild of the family was getting married. Nabi Ben refused to meet him. Sadly, the son went back and got his daughter married. The whispers among the guests that the bride's paternal relatives were nowhere to be seen, reached the son. He somehow felt very dejected and sad. He wrote to his mother and siblings that he forfeited his share of the house. He didn't want anything to do with the family who couldn't be there for him in his joyous moments.


Two years later, the second son who lived in Ahmedabad passed away due to heart failure. His wife was angry at Nabi Ben and blamed her for this death. She didn't allow her to come for the funeral and forfeited her husband's share. Nabi Ben was saddened. Saddened but not softened. She refused to forfeit her claim. Her daughters, however, were moved by everything that was unfolding in the family. They requested their mother and brothers to sort it out and both forfeited their claim. With four people forfeiting their claim, the succession was contested among three survivors.


Oh! You might be wondering what happened to the court case. As is the norm with civil cases, the court kept giving out fresh dates for hearing. Each claimant was hopeful of a decision in their favour. But it also started taking a toll on her fourth son's health. Things went so bad that his in-laws asked him to move in with them for his peace of mind. They put forth a condition though that he will forgo his claim on Vaikunth and work with them in Rajkot. They assured him that his family lives in comfort. Thinking of the hardships that he had put his wife and children under, he gave up the fight for the house. Two claimants left.


And finally, after 18 years, the court reached a decision. Nabi Ben was the legal and rightful successor of her husband and hence, Vaikunth belonged to her. Nabi Ben's happiness knew no bounds. Having spent a huge portion of her savings on lawyers, discord and disrespect from the children that she gave birth to, years spent like a nomad… Nabi Ben thought of the huge price she had to pay for owning Vaikunth.


The door to the house was opened. Nabi Ben went through each room of the house and stared at the courtyard lovingly. She sat on the swing and closed her eyes to see her children running around and playing, her husband sitting beside her, the maid bringing in the tea. She heard the cacophony of children, the melodious birds, the drums being played, the women singing songs. She opened her eyes again. There was dust of time and dry leaves of memories scattered everywhere. She closed her eyes again and… never opened them again.


Tuesday, 9 November 2021

Why don't you write anymore?

 




“Keep writing like so.”

“Why?”

“Whenever you write I feel as if you are trying to convey your own emotions, something that you might want to say directly but can’t.”

“Nothing like that.”

“So you're telling me that the characters in your story aren’t used by you to express yourself?”

“They are just characters in my story with their own opinions and thoughts. They reflect emotions which are generally felt by people anyway. Don’t think too much of it.” He lit his cigarette, sending a puff of smoke in the air as he smoked … blurring Meera’s face. She smiled and said “Whenever I read your stories I feel as if I know something more about you.”

“That’s what you think and what you think is a misconception.” He stood up and said “Just read what I write, don’t read into what I write. Don’t analyse. You might start thinking of things that don’t even exist.”

That was six months ago. He kept writing, she kept reading his work. Only, she stopped commenting and giving her feedback. And then he didn’t publish anything for four months. Such quietness from someone abuzz made her wonder if everything was right with him. She went to his home that evening.

“I thought you forgot where I lived.”

“Oh shut up! I was just going past and thought …”

“For heaven’s sake Meera!” He laughed out loud “What do you mean by “just going past”? My home isn’t in the middle of a market nor does any of your acquaintances live anywhere near here. Your excuses are just as badly cooked as your food.”

She made a face and said “I just came to look up and see if you’re ok. You haven’t written for some time …”

“Because you read me a lot and I want to save something for myself. If I am left with nothing then you will leave me. Just like we discard a plate when there’s nothing left in it.”



Tuesday, 26 October 2021

Why God?



I look into your eyes
And ask God
"Why can't I see him
Everyday, forever?"

I hug you tightly
And ask God
"Why isn't it in my fate
To be held in his arms?"

I hold your hand
And ask God
"Why can't I walk the
Path of my life with him?"

God pulled you apart from me
And said
"How can I give him to you?
He simply isn't in your destiny".



Sheetal S

I Too Want To Touch The Stars

 


I too want to touch the stars.
I too want to fly
High up in the sky.

My wings are tied.
I am told to break free
God alone knows how hard I try.

And when I do manage to
Wrestle and break free
I am told
There are no stars left for me.




~ Sheetal Soni

I'll resume the fight


 


The wolves howl,
The woods scare
The darkness sneers
I have to go through anyway.

The winds pierce
The cold bites
With no respite
I have to march ahead anyway.

I have done this
A hundred times before.
I will have to do this
Many times more.

But tonight my dear,
I’m drained,
I'm scared.
I'm lost.
I’m bared.

Please hug me tonight
Please hold me in your arms lovingly
All through the night.
Tomorrow I'll be stronger
And I promise …
I'll resume the fight.

Monday, 25 October 2021

A Permanent Scar






I had been going to a patient's house for over eight months as a carer. My patient was an old woman who needed help with medication and personal care. Her son lived with her. The carers were given strict instructions never to leave her alone. Usually it wasn’t a problem as one of her sons was always present.


Last week however the son left when I came and promised he'll be back within half an hour, which is the length of my visit. Half an hour passed, he didn't come. I got ready to leave but suddenly the woman held my hand and cried, telling me not to leave her alone. I called the office and asked them to contact her son. He responded that he'll be back in 15 mins. I assured the woman but she just stood at the door refusing to let me go. The son came, apologised profusely and explained the reason for his delay. He was sorry for his mom's behaviour too but I said it's ok as I still have time for my next visit. This happened again during the week.


Yesterday her son told me the reason behind her terror of being left alone. "We three sons had always known to have happy parents. Mum always made sure the house was In perfect order. We were sent away to boarding school. Whenever we came back from holidays mum would be so happy and she simply wouldn't let us go back. She would cry and plead. We assumed it was her motherly love. Till we grew up. My brother was studying psychology and he insisted that from now on we go to meet our parents without informing them. I found it odd but agreed. So one day we three brothers decided to take leave from college and go meet our parents. The eldest brother had the keys to the house. We reached our house and as we unlocked the door, we saw the horror that our mother had been hiding from us all these years just to keep our childhood normal. My dad was mercilessly beating her with a stick. We rushed in, took mum to a doctor. Dad was too drunk. In the hospital mum cried and told us that he used to hit her only when no one was in the house so that there would be no witnesses. Also, the reason why we were sent away to boarding school. We eventually made mum file for divorce and it's been 5 years that my dad has passed away. But as you can see, the mental scars remain".


I listened with moist eyes. The fear, the terror lives on even after the tormentor dies. That's the cruelty of domestic violence.

The Tree

 




He went and sat under the tree in the forest beside his house.


It wasn't that he didn't have any friends. He had many to play with, to talk to. But none that he could really talk to without being judged. He had once told his friend that he was scared of the dark. His friend told everyone in the class and he got teased about it in the playground. He had then come running to this huge tree and cried. And he felt relieved. Ever since then, he would run to the tree whenever his father told him off, his mother chided him, his teacher scolded him or his friends fought with him. He shared his achievements and jubilations with the tree. Sometimes he would go and sit under the tree and tell all his secrets, all his wishes, his aspirations, his fears.


The tree listened silently … just like it listened to many others like the boy. It was least bothered about the events in the boy's life. And he knew it. But it didn't matter to him because for him it was enough that he could lighten up himself, unburden himself beneath the tree. It's presence gave him solace, his presence didn't matter to the tree.


Some people are trees too.


Sheetal Soni